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Monday, May 14, 2012

jar of hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half-alive
Now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long
Just to feel alright
Remember how to put back
The light in my eyes

I wish I had missed
The first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back you don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?



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This song is about a girl would loved a boy with every part of her and he loved her deeply but he didn't fully understand what he had when he was with her, breaking up was the hardest decision she had to make, she could see he felt something for someone else even though he said he still loved her and would deny any feelings for the other girl, but he wanted to see if there was something better and not settle down just yet for he was only so young, so after she had enough of the lies she left him and he chose to purse the other girl, but all the while his first love was on his mind. She was still heart broken and still loved him, but hates what he did to her at the same time. Even looking at him brought memories of what they had together, and she felt as though no one could replace what she had with him. A year goes by and throughout the year the boy stays with the other girl but knows it was not anywhere near the magic he had with his first love. He comes back into her life wanting her advice and help with what he should do, wanting his first love to tell him that she still needs him. But she has learnt never to trust him again, she will never let someone throw her away to find something better and then come to the realisation that she was the best he could have ever had and expect her to jump straight back into his arms. He hurt her so deeply that just coming back into her life wont fix it, she wishes she never met him so he could have never hurt her, wishes he didnt have any control over her, and wishes she never fell in love with a liar. Who does he think he is coming back into her life after lying and choosing someone else to replace her, it will never work because of all the hurt he caused, all the lies he said and the hate created. The scar will be with her for the rest of her life but its a reminder to her to never let someone steal a part of her again, never to be tricked into believing empty words but mostly it is a reminder to never be tricked by him again. The scar is a learning curve so she can only improve what she has from now on and as soon as there is doubt she will let her heart take over and end it before she gets another gash that should have been prevented from the start.

Friday, May 11, 2012

hey-ipang

hey...
belum juga aku mengerti.
apa yang sedang ku rasakan,
tak seperti biasanya.
hey ye..
mungkin semua karenamu.
sudah tak bisa ku nikmati,
saat kau tak bersamaku.
Reff :
seandainya saja ku bisa katakan
jangan kau tinggalkan.
saat ini ku ragu
bisakah ku nikmati semua tanpamu.
selamanya..
hey..
pernah ku katakan dalam hati,
mencoba untuk menikmati..
semua yang terjadi.
hey ye..
ternyata sangat melelahkan.
harusku hadapi kenyataan,
sendiri tak bersamamu.
back to Reff.
berharap ku terbiasa
sendiri menikmatinya.
berharap ku terbiasa
sendiri menikmatinya. 

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